But, after a long time your joy peters out. You were capable of
enjoying the love play so much that even when the Lord made you unaware of his presence or
seemed to act contrary to your lofty expectations you could still love him. It was easy to
be constant in your love mood because you enjoyed loving him so. But, now after a
long time, your joy has worn thin so you stop loving the Lord.
"What was I loving
him for anyway?" you wonder. "If he really loved me, hed be here.
Whats the point in loving a Lord whos never around? Why should I love him
when I dont enjoy it?"
As your joy flies away, a sense of profoundest desolation occurs. "Its no
fun loving a Lord whos far away from me. What kind of a Lord would treat me this
way?" you wonder. "Certainly he is, after all, an unworthy lover."
Its common that human relationships are dissolved when one party in the
relationship goes away, stays away and doesnt even communicate. However, it can be
observed that in some cases there are people who continue to love the absent one even when
he (or she) is far away, or uncommunicative, or even has done some evil to him or her. The
love usually continues in the heart of the lover in these instances because he or she
enjoys that love so much. The enjoyment of that love is extremely precious to the
So, too, at an extremely high and...