The fiancé to fiancée relationship was so powerful it
transformed you and, as you now grow in love, you are compelled by your new nature to love
even more dynamically, even more intimately. And so, the Kama Radha relationship between
the individual soul, Radha, and the higher consciousness happens. Ramakrishna would urge
that Kama Radha be recognized as a mood between the individual soul and the Lord. Sri
Ramakrishna would also have a much larger vocabulary of subtle terms to use than our
English language allows.
Endeavoring to approximate Ramakrishnas terms: in the
Kama Radha experience you become such an intense, transformed lover you only care about
one thing, you only live for one thing: the Lord and your love of him. He (or She) seems
your all in all. You conduct your life only for him. You live or die for him only. Your
actions are for him your conversation, your exercise and study. You eat for him.
Your thoughts are for him. You think only out of love for him. You have the conviction you
exist for him only.
But believe it or not, there is a tinge of selfishness in the blazing love of Kama
Radha your spiritual desire for your Beloved. The selfishness concerns the quality
of your love. However high you may be and however deeply deserving of the respect of
all humanity, your love has a shortcoming. If your lofty love play with the Lord grows
progressively, you are happy and all is well.
However, if your Beloved withdraws himself...